New beginning 'may be'

  For the first time ever of this long journey together I feel this way. The first time ever it seems easy to let you go; for the first time ever I can feel your absence even in your presence. I feel strangely inside me, something moving inside me as the time to say good bye approaches. I am not angry, unhappy, crying or emotional for any reason, in fact, this time I don't feel anything at all, it's numbness that surrounds me now, holding me tight creating a bubble around me to not let anything in, and this for the very first time excludes YOU.  Two strangers laid their eyes on each other one day, not knowing that this could last forever One side saw the body, the other went deep inside the soul You always had the hint of devastation in you but, with the mixture of endless love  I choose to see the love. You are prettiest in all the stars, I can find you in all the stars I saw the innocence in your lies, they melted my heart even when I knew they were lies, only YOU had t...

Story Of A Pond There was a pond named Himadri situated at the bank of river Yamuna. Yamuna is a flowing river. The best quality of a flowing water is that it cleanses itself without any external aid for the process. This a story of a pond who chooses a path to become a river to cleanse itself, experience life in a better way possible. Staying still, I look around to explore life beyond My heart aches, I can't look beyond from where I stand However I see a water flowing, someone who is not still like me People call her Yamuna but for me she is an aspiration  I try to touch her feet but  there is an enormous distance between us which looks just few steps I try every day to move forward and mix my energies into hers, holding me tight my boundaries pulls me back I wonder what it's feels like to be free, I look around for help to find none One day it started raining hard, with the water added to me I prayed to set me free I cried that day hard to add some more water to go through,...

The most powerful man in the world is not the one who has control over the world, but the one who has control over himself . The most powerful man is not the one who possess everything that exist in this world, but the one who owns nothing but still experience everything in life. One man who possess lots of money, bodyguards for safety and every materialist as well as unlimited numbers of people ready to do anything to be with him and on the other hand exists a man who owns nothing and have just himself in his life but experience everything. What is more powerful.? To work hard to get money or to make oneself in such a way that you realize it's not the money that can buy you happiness. What is more powerful.? To be able to shop in the most expensive store in the world, or to overcome the desires that arise within us.? What is more desirable.? Reducing the length of your clothes or covering yourself up.? What is more beautiful.? To make oneself in such a way that we are not, with th...

Our love was like a cigarette The more we wanted to have each other The more we led ourselves to the end of us . With every drag we feel loved    And after every drag we feel lost We wanted to have it all, only to realize it's no more. How we exhausted something we ''loved the most'' That's the mystery everyone wants to solve. At the initial stage, we feel we found the love              That love becomes the addiction            Only to realize it's only harming us Although the cigarette always remained the same It's us who kept changing with the phase. I knew we were about to fall apart . This is the last time she is this near to me, touching me with love Let's die together , I throw my ash on her body I failed to grab her attention, she threw the packet away Our love was thrown away, and I decided to keep quiet this time I knew it is the final goodbye. I am the last drag of her cigarette that she will remem...

  When I see I am Almost There When I see, I am almost there And within a second I am still here I feel like I am not moving in any direction But still I find myself at the last corner I don't know what the matter is But I find myself lost in every direction. When I see, I am almost there. I think I am chasing something, not likely to be remembered by me Then why I am still running? Is it the unsatisfaction that keeps me going? To whom should I ask these question, when everyone is somewhere in the same circle. I have lost the hope, should I stop now or keeping going? Is this gonna change my life? We all have the same finish line, no matter how many circles we cover through our lives. When I see, I am almost there.

Ordinary Girl Who Used To Sing Like A Bird She was an ordinary girl who used to sing like a bird She had a magical voice that attracts everything alive No matter what keeps going, singing was something that make her feel alive. Life kept changing her pace, singing was something that still remained in that phase She was an ordinary girl who used to sing like a bird. Her eyes were deep like a valley The place where she hides her misery, that used to flow like a river through her eyes Those tides used to give her the music, so she could keep her singing alive She was an ordinary girl who used to sing like a bird. One day she couldn't find her lyrics, they were lost somewhere like hope for her She kept going to find them, that day no one could find her Some can still hear her sing, with no appearance of her to be seen She was an ordinary girl who used to sing like a bird.

                   Unheard Screams My voice loud and clear, can you hear me? I am all alone, can you accompany me?                    I don't know where this road will lead but can you promise to be with me? Promises are broken before but can you see the hope in me?     Do you still have the rage to break it?             I wonder if it was you who make it.     People make homes according to their pockets     You did the same so why don't you confess it?      I was something that you always ignored      I was the one you left alone.     When you will look back you will see what you  have lost     But can you ever see what you could have?     My voice loud and clear, can you hear me?

                      The Lies To Tell The Truth I want to know my answers but people keep lying, was I only for the lies.? It started on well with both the sides but, then the reality opens our eyes Was I only for the lies? Is it easy now or it was always like nothing from your side You disappeared in the fog with no goodbye It was always the darkness that I confused with the light, it all seems clear now when you are not by my side. Nothing lights forever I read somewhere, looking at the Sun I laughed Now I understand the true meaning of it, with no smile to be seen Do we know the reason of all the goodbyes?  This was my silent one first time.  I want to know my answers but people keep lying, was I only for the lies.?

                                          I am a fat little girl, people comment I used to be thin I wanted to tell them They still laugh at me in the same way they used to. When I was thin, they still used to complain, they still use to tore me apart in the same way Now today as I gained weight they say that I was prettier then, I am just not pretty ever in the present. I am a fat little girl, people comment Am I ever gonna change? Or just remain an ugly girl forever I never fit into this world, I always swim in the opposite direction But still I end up being surrounded by them, it's like a circle that never ends. I am a fat little girl, people comment. I never got to know what perfection is, I guess it's something that runs away from me. I never got to know what color I am made up of but, that is something they are ignorant of. My height was never pleasant for them, they used to ig...

In Continuation With Part 6 Look Bob I know your mother was a great woman but that doesn't mean I am going to believe in such crap. You need HELP Bob. You need to understand ''dead people don't come back and talk''. Bob you were very attached with your mother and there is nothing wrong with that but now the thing you are seeing and talking about is its side effect. Get  over it and let's go now Dr. Jorge must be waiting for you, you are already 20minutes late. BYE !!! And Sam pushed Bob towards the door of the hospital. Bob had no option but to go and have words with his psychiatrist. Knock Knock... Yes please come in Bob. I was waiting for you, come have a seat, said Dr. Jorge in a very excited tone. Hi..., Bob responded. As you know Bob I am a psychiatrist and of course your doctor. I am working in this field from last 10years. Anything else you would like to know about me? Asked Dr. Jorge smiling. No. It's more than what is needed. Tha...

In continuation with Part 5 Sam come here I have to show you something, shouted Bob. Yes, what is it?? Asked Sam. Look we have to dial this number. We can get some clue from it, said Bob. Clue??? 'Regarding what Bob'? Asked Sam. Look Sam I think my dad is having any affair and this is the reason why he murdered my mom. I just can't keep quiet, 'not any more'. I want you to help me SAM, shouted Bob. What???? Wait a minute Bob. Your mom was NOT MURDERED. Stop Blaming your dad for it. It was an accident Bob. Get over it, shouted Sam in response. I will do it alone then, Bob declared. Do whatever you want but first let's go for your appointment with Dr. Jorge. He is your psychiatrist, maybe he can make you understand things better Bob. You just don't listen to what we say. Pick up your bag now and let's go. Before we enter his cabin just listen to me for once Sam. Don't show like you also don't care. I need you Sam. I need you...

In continuation with Part 4          Natasha was very different from other girls. She never liked doing make-ups, she never took much time to get ready, she never used cosmetics. In short, she never cared about her outer beauty and may be that was the reason everyone used to make fun of her. Many people commented on her looks, called her ugly. Even Kevin made her feel she is not enough for him. Her parents feel insulted when someone ask 'Is she your daughter'?  She had a hard past and wanted Kevin to create a new world for her. But Kevin was not ready to do so. Kevin feel attracted by other beautiful females around. He started cheating on her from the day one of their relationship. In the initial stage, Natasha refused to accept the reality and believed Kevin was not that mature and forgive him for all he did. But that was just the starting, affairs increased after that. Natasha one day decided to commit suicide. Kevin after getting to know about ...

When I see around myself I see people arguing. They are simply arguing for the sake of justifying what he said. They don't actually want to know the truth, they just want to keep fighting until they both collide with each other and die. Do we actually what to know the truth? Or we just fight to oppose something. What is our motive? To know the truth or to simply oppose something? I realized people fight to be in power. One may fight for it because he knows if he won't be in power he will be thrashed. Other may fight to be in power to control others. So, this thin line of right and wrong is only your intentions. Both are willing to achieve the same goal but not both are dangerous to the world. Now how to know on which part we stand. Well when you take a stand on something, you know it. You know your reasons, your intention, your motives, the things you want to get out of it, you know Everything. You just try to fool others. You can not fool yourself. Yes, I am talking abo...

In continuation with Part 3 Next morning when Bob opened his eyes he saw, as usual Natasha sitting in front of him. They were not in the box any more. Then they laid back on the floor of store house. After chanting something Natasha gave Bob an empty cup and asked him to hold. She took out knife from her pocket and cut her palm and start pouring the blood in the cup Bob was holding. She did the same with Bob, cut his palm and collected his blood in the same cup and took a very long sip of it. Bob was horrified. He wanted to leave. He started crying ' Mamma let me go '. Hearing him cry Kevin arrived to check what was wrong. Kevin holds Bob's hand and asked him to come with him. Natasha looking straight into Bob's eyes asked Bob to drink the remaining blood. Kevin slapped Natasha and went back to Bob. Bob was drinking the blood and said 'I will always be with you mamma'. Kevin could not understand what Natasha did with Bob. Natasha was 1 month pregnant w...

In continuation with Part 2 Sam was so horrified seeing uncle Kevin on the back seat of his car. Uncle Kevin without saying much get out of the car to leave. Sam narrated the complete incident to Bob on reaching home. Bob, with Sam on his side, checked the CCTV footage of the house. After watching the video they realized how Kevin first met Sam inside house, how he went outside when Sam was in the kitchen and how he ran towards Sam's car to sit inside it. Kevin even broke the back window of Sam's car to enter into it when Sam was in kitchen. Sam was completely shocked of the whole incident and asked Bob why he did all this? Bob with tears in his eyes replied, it's quite simple Sam. Dad doesn't want me to return. He was trying to horrify even you so you don't want to go back to him about anything. Kevin was 19years old when he met love of his life Natasha. They did their graduation together and in the last year of their college they decide to tie the kn...

In continuation with Part 1 of In Middle Of NOwhere. Shocked by what he just saw, he fainted on the floor. Next morning Sam was ringing the bell of his house, it took him 25minutes to open the door. Sam asked - what's wrong with your head? Is it bleeding? Wait let me get some ice for you... No wait let me first call the doctor. He was in so hurry that instead of dialling doctor's number he dialled of Bob's. Sam was making coffee for Kevin (Bob's father) and when he returned from kitchen with the mug of coffee, he saw Kevin talking with someone in so low volume to make sure no one listens to his whispers, in this situation, Sam, to hear. Sam got scared seeing him and within that moment wanted to go out of his house. Sam thought the best thing in this situation would be to keep quiet and that he should make some noise before entering into the guest room where Kevin was siting so that Kevin did not get to know that Sam saw him talking to someone. Sam went back to t...

It was 3 AM as Bob was continuously staring at the wall clock hanging on the wall of his room. He was trying to figure out something written on the wall clock. It was written in English language, something he masters over but still he was unable to read it. After staring the clock for some time he decides to go close to the wall and see it from there. He was trying so hard to push himself off the bed, but he couldn't. He starts yelling mamma please let me go this time I will try to remember everything next time but someone holds him back so tight that his hands started bleeding. Hearing him cry his father broke into his room and shook him so bad so that he could wake up from his dream. Seeing his hand bleeding he asked what happened and Bob did not utter a single word out of his mouth. This was not the first time such incident happened. His father was so worried about him that he left his job and even made Bob stay at home for all the time. His dad was a millionaire, so he c...